Getting even harder!!

I didn't think it would be harder to find positives on a weekend, but this weekend it is! Not helped by finding out that my 24 year old colleague has a second interview. That's not the issue though, I had actually guessed. She delayed telling me because she thought it would upset me - which it might have done when I was 24 and unable to manage the complexity of being disappointed for myself but happy for someone else - then said she wasn't going to stress about it because she's got a job so she'll be okay no matter what. Which WAS monumentally insensitive because she knows full well I'm facing probable unemployment in 2 months i.e. the one interview I have is actually hugely important for me as being successful would mean I would only have to get through a 4/5 months of unemployment instead of indefinite unemployment! I shake my head in confusion as to how I can communicate on my CV how much more ready I am for training than someone like her I just simply haven't had the money to do a masters.

So, yesterday was not a good day. Nonetheless, here are my three positives.

1) It was a Saturday, which meant I got to basically mess around on the internet and do nothing meaningful for several wonderful hours.
2) I spent a significant amount of time going through example questions for interview and thinking about the areas I will need to focus on for interview preparation, i.e. I was productive even though I appeared to be doing very little.
3) I read and received my Royal Holloway rejection letter without any stabbing pains of leftover disappointment i.e. I have got to the point where I feel the dignity I believe I have largely been demonstrating around my rejections.

I've just thought of a 4th!

4) My lovely ex and fabulous friend P. dropped everything (i.e. held back a pile of aggressive Glaswegians extra drunk on St Paddy's day trying to get into the club he works at) to give me a quick call to make sure I was okay when I texted him saying I needed a hug. He is a true friend and I am so lucky to have one like him.