Okay, today has been hectic but pretty productive. Seriously got into report writing mode today and checked a few niggling items off my list with glee. Yes, yes, I know that could be one of my positives but I'm feeling so confident I will find them I decided to leave that as an unofficial positive.

1. I had a conversation with our newish not quite CT or ST (it turns out) who is quite opinionated and fancies himself rather intellectual and made him consider some alternative perspectives on some of the views he presented. It felt good to be able to hold my corner in a discussion about mental health with someone who is eminently more qualified than me. It was a big boost in my confidence in my knowledge and understanding. 

2. I went to an interview workshop today, which was hugely helpful in a few respects. Firstly, it drove home the point that I will need to slow myself and my anxious brain down in interview and that I need to think about structuring my answers and not just emitting a stream of consciousness. But, and this is the positive, it made me feel really confident in my knowledge and skills, especially my clinical skills of course, and I know I will hold my own in interview as long as I can manage my anxiety!!!! But, having seen the level of the competition and getting a sense that Maxine might actually be more right than I initially understood about me being better than most candidates will go some way towards easing that anxiety.

3. I practised bits of the Tower of Hanoi which is about organisation and planning but also a bit about fluid intelligence and I did really well! I took only 3 moves more than the minimum and had a minute to spare on the hardest one. And I did much better than my ex colleague who I think certain people consider to be smarter than me. Which she may still be, but I'm going for positives here so ssssssshhhhhh! The girl is younger, prettier, more money savvy, in a serious relationship, on track for a stellar career ... I have to have one up on her in some respect!!!!