Slipping already!

In my defence, anything I wrote before I collapsed into a heap on my bed may have been completely unintelligible to anyone but me. And even I probably only would have been able to understand it in those few minutes before I fell asleep.

So, in case the inebriation wasn't a big enough clue, yesterday wasn't a great day either. Yesterday I got confirmation that I only have 1 interview for the DClinPsy this year and my hopes for succeeding at that interview are not high. I'm not saying they're zilch, but the interview is notorious for being really challenging!  So, I thought I would focus on the positives about my achievement so far, before trying to scrape together some positives about yesterday as a specific day.

1. I have beaten out around 1000 other people to be offered an interview at UCL. According to both major academic ranking systems, UCL is in the top 20 universities in the world and in the top 15 specifically for psychology. Streaks ahead of King's College/IoP. The better institution is interested in little 'ole me!
2. Just because I know so many really good people who didn't get offered a place doesn't mean I won't. I have a lot to offer that most of the 20-something, middle-class white girls they will be interviewing don't.
3. It's never been harder to get a place on a course than it is now, so to be offered an interview is amazing, regardless of the outcome of that interview.
4. If I don't get on this year, I will get different experience and gain a whole host of new skills doing something I'm really interested in. I really can't lose in psychology!
5. If I manage to get an RA post, I might even get a bit of a pay increase.
6. I am good at what I do. MS considers me in the top 3 of the the best trainees she's ever supervised. To get that kind of support from someone as parsimonious with her praise as her is simply incredible. I know I am better skilled than most of the 1st year trainees I help train. All I need to do is show that at interview.

Okay, I think that's a good start. We could call this the start of my balanced thoughts about being rejected by so many colleges and about being a nearly middle aged, single woman stuck in the 'apprentice' phase of her career.

So, what WAS positive about yesterday.
1. I got to see some of my fabulous friends after work.
2. I had toasted cheese sandwiches for dinner. They were AWESOME!
3. I remembered the timer function on my washing machine so had a fresh bundle of clean washing to hang up when I got home yesterday evening.

Yeah, yeah, yeah, I know. That was seriously scraping the bottom, but the rule is 3 and I'm not going to go less than that, even if someone dies! I do think I should get a star from Seligman for so much positivity about my recent massive rejections though!